Trying again?
Hi 22M here, since i just got out from a recent MU with someone, i’ve been thinking to trying again with someone who kindly rejected me like a year ago in my uni, info about me ambivert(i think)? Most of the time i wanna be alone with AirPods on but recently after the MU situation i have been interacting with people in my uni. Soo about her F21, very timid girl!!, every time na magrerecite siya, Prof always say to her pakilakasan Ms. And never ko pa siya nakita nagalit at sumigaw, and its so CUTE! :p, first encounter namin is being classmates at a basic engineering subj, you know the usual, “hey classmates rin tayo sa next subj, sabay tayo pumasok ng room para di akward” (idk kung weird nun pero wala na ,past na eh), fast forward.., always asking if nasan sia since vacant rin sia for our next subjs, and finals week is coming, decided to give her a chocolate bar na may stickynote saying “goodluck sa review :p” i think she appreciated it? Kasi nagchat siya sa messenger saying thank you? If ako kasi i wouldn’t chat if nadidirian ako idk my logic. After finals week we are chatting at like every 9pm pero mga catching up lang like “wyd, and school related shitt”. Fast forward ulett, enrollment na so sumabay ako sa group of friends nia sa enrollment because i wanna get the same subjs as her. I have my car parked outside and gusto ko ihatid sia sa bahay niya. I think this is where i crossed the line, pinilit ko kasi siya, so she did agree to ride with me pero ups and downs ung car ride convo namin mostly me bringing up shit. I feel like she was uncomfortable that time and i wanna kms AHAHAHAHA, so classes started again mga mid week ng semester i said fuck it we ball mentality to say that i like her. And wonk got rejected nicely, and so after that ang weird namin and we are the same year and same course so i see her everytime, like to a point na parang di kami magkakilala, trying to force myself to say hello to her para “normal na” but di ko kayaaa. Almost a year has passed na ganun parin ang situation namin. After my recent MU ko i have been think about this, even happy days ako with my MU that time i still feel the same towards her (shy girl). So should i try again? Or no more hope dahil sa mga mistakes na ginawa ko?
(I am having hope because my mom rejected my dad at first and now they are married )