u/Clue_Flex__

Is there anything really right or wrong? If yes, then what is it?This discussion is not only about AOT to tell beforehand but more about life itself.

I watched AOT like a year ago and it the best anime I have watched . But I hate it when people say they like Reiner or Annie and want justification of actions of Eren.

The actions of Eren were made from what he saw. A major part of it came from what Annie, Reiner, and Bertholdt did. I hate how people forget what they did to Falco and the people of Eldia when it all started. Even if we keep the first attack aside, they still spent a major part of their lives in Eldia. They knew people there were also good and had done nothing wrong, but they still chose to do what they felt was right.

Levi lost everything, even when all he ever tried to do was the right thing. How can Annie be forgiven for what she did? She is one of the major reasons Levi would never get the happy life and love he deserved and wanted.

And Annie is going to marry Armin and have a happy life. It might be a little tough, but still, a happy life. How does that make sense? Eren died because he killed people outside his own people, and he died for it. But Annie and Reiner should live happy lives. They deserve it. At least Eren should have crushed the families of Annie and Reiner . Everyone has a reason for what they do, but doesn't justify their actions.

Levi actually made only one mistake: reviving Armin instead of Commander Erwin. Actually, the people of Eldia deserve to suffer too. How could they forget how many people Annie killed? What she did to Levi’s squad and every other person?

Where are those religious people who bark about karma now?

Where is karma now? And if you say karma is taken care of in the next life, then Annie and Reiner should at least die hundreds of times to pay for what they did to people. A normal death could never repay it.(Yes we could say same for EREN too.)

Just keep AOT aside. You might say it is fiction and God has nothing to do with it. But it’s not like this doesn’t happen in the real world too. You all might have read the Epstein files by now, and you all have studied history too, haven’t you?

What about them? Innocent people died there too. What about their justice? Who provides that? Where is God and karma that all of you believe in?

If everyone just killed this little thing called morality and kindness inside themselves, then everyone would be free. You could kill anyone you want. Boys could assault any girl they want, girls could assault any boy they want, and none of it would matter.

Look at it another way around. I could kill the whole family of every person reading this and still live a happy life, while you suffer till your last breath wondering why it happened to you when you did nothing wrong. That’s the perspective of Annie’s life.

There is nothing like God, and if He is there, then He doesn’t give a shit about the people living here. There is nothing truly right or wrong. It is all just power. We are weak because we are born with things called morality and emotional bonds, and they make us weak. Animals are better than us in these things.

There is nothing like good people getting good things and bad people getting bad things. It is all random. Then should I follow morality just to sleep with more relief? What a mere joke it is.

Then why didn’t I do the things I said? Why didn’t I kill people and do whatever I want? Because I am weak too. I had a belief that there was a God who looked at things and did what was right, but there is not. There is nothing like that.

I am just a mere believer in thoughts that are not even mine. I got them from this world.

Here I am going to explain the phase of life I am going through and why I feel unable to come outside of it.

For almost more than a month now, I have been stuck in a state where sadness feels constant. Even when I laugh with friends or have a good moment outside, the moment I sit alone with myself again, the same heaviness comes back. It feels endless, like something inside me is continuously sinking and I don't know how to stop it.

At first I thought it was just because of anime, but now I think those anime only opened emotions that were already buried inside me.

I watched too many emotional and sad anime back to back. Every one of them hurt me in a different way.

hurt my expectations and attachment.

built this slow emotional tension inside me that never really got released.

Then completely destroyed me emotionally.

After that, I couldn't even enjoy lighthearted anime anymore. I tried watching season 2 after enjoying season 1 before, but my heart just rejected it. I can't explain it properly. Instead of comfort, I started feeling heaviness and pain even from normal romantic moments.

But anime was not the only thing.

There was a girl I liked for around 8 years. Even though nothing happened between us, somewhere deep inside I carried feelings for her for a very long time. Then I found out she was in a relationship with someone else. I did not cry at that moment, but something inside me definitely broke.

Then another thing happened. I got into a relationship with another girl later, and for the first time I felt like I had a real emotional connection with someone. But one day I found her Instagram account and realized she was already in a relationship with another person while also trying with someone else at the same time. I felt cheated, but again, I did not cry immediately. I think all these things just kept piling up inside me.

And after all this, my mind slowly started changing.

At first it was sadness for myself and feeling hurt for not being chosen, but then it slowly turned into questioning life itself.

I started thinking about why life is so unfair for many innocent people. Why do good people suffer? Why do some people lose everything even when they did nothing wrong? I started feeling pain not only for myself but also for random people, stories, strangers, characters, everyone.

Then it became even bigger:

What even is life?

What is consciousness?

What is the purpose of all this suffering?

Why do humans become attached if everything can be lost?

I don't even remember the last time I felt genuinely peaceful or truly happy for a long period of time.

Now it feels like no matter where I go or what I do, sadness is waiting underneath everything. Even when I am not actively thinking about anything, I feel like crying. Sometimes I feel restless, unable to sit still, like there is pressure inside my chest that won't leave.

I tried distracting myself with lighter content, normal videos, talking with friends, but the moment I return to myself, the sadness comes back again.

I don't know if this is emotional exhaustion, depression, existential crisis, attachment issues, or all of them mixed together.

I just know that I feel mentally tired and emotionally overwhelmed, and I genuinely want to understand what is happening to me and how to come out of this phase.