This is Project Konazar, or just Konazar, he's an artificial lifeform who was discarded into a dimension of pure chaos, and adapted, developing order and editting powers, (He can basically edit his enviorement and store things from it, such as whole structures, mountains, etc. His goal is to create his own planet, by stealing "Assets" from mobius and other places)
Why the muscles? I know anatomy, so, yup, i did do it. Made one big middle-aged man. He's also like, the final product of my first pulse oc. Bro has literally aged as i made him.
You see, im 18 years old. And when i ask pepole about this problem they tell me "grow up" and stuff like that. But okay to the point. I dont know why, but i get very like, envious, rarher easily about this, when someone ships a character with their own ocs, that i ship with my own ocs, i feel like this sudden envious, toxic, urge to like, want to destroy their work, wich is NOT fine, and i also get very anxious and posessive. Due to that i cant relax when writing/drawing fanfics. Any help to this?
Okay so. You're in for a big rant and, i genuinely need help from somenoe who understands me. I am NOT okay, im obsessive about a bunch of things and im rather desperate beacuse i genuinely cannot enjoy media, why is that? Jealousy and frustration. I read a comic? Watch a series? Look at art? Play videogames? I comparate my characters to those in the media piece im looking at, be it from a famous studio, or a little guy making art they like. Shipping? Same thing, i like shipping my ocs with Canon media characters. When i see an art of someone shipping their oc with a character i have shipped. I get anxious, DEATHLY anxious, and im so tired. IM EXHAUSTED, AND DESPERATE of being unable to enjoy any media. I just need to get this envy, frustration and jealousy away. And i dont know what to do. So okay is anyone out there with a similar problem i can get feedback from? I need someone to talk with about this. Please. Seriously. I know its something fictional and that shouldnt make me worry but. I just need help. And i AM going to the psychologist.