I met my ex about 9 months ago. We’re both uni students, we connected instantly and she was the first real girlfriend I’ve ever had, first relationship, first love, and I even lost my virginity to her. We fell in love so fast about 6 months in we were practically living together and talking about our future and getting married etc. But a couple of weeks after what was our first real argument, I found messages on her phone. Long story short she was unfaithful. It completely broke me. The breakup process was horrible. I even got back with her for a month or two because I was scared. After I finally decided to step away, not even sure if it was what I wanted or if I just needed some space and time, she blocked me.
It’s been a few months now. I don’t know how a person who said they would always love me even after the breakup could never want to speak to me again. I think about her everyday and it’s completely ruined my mental health.
I’ve tried distracting myself by talking to other girls but each time it makes me feel worse and miss her more.
Don’t really know what to do. How can you move on from your first love? No matter what I do it’s all I can think about and I’m terrified she’s moved on