u/Clematis222

So it has been nearly a month now and absolutely feel like hell. I have gone through the dizziness, headaches, feeling like nothing is real and I am in a movie- the trembling limbs are settling but now I am stuck with a racing heart and palpitations - had my heart checked and it is fine. I can’t sleep because it pounds at night. My voice is hoarse, my throat hurts and I sometimes get chest pain and I am absolutely exhausted. I lost 4kg because of the nausea and didn’t really have that to lose!
So now I am wanting to smoke because I actually felt fine when I smoked and it was only 3-4 a day. I can’t cope with this, I don’t want NRT products or pills. Will it all stop if I smoke again?

I quit smoking 15 days ago and I am miserable as hell. I don’t really crave smoking, just the person I was when I smoked (without the rank stench).

I smoked on and off for 38 years started around 17 because of trauma. Never more than around 12 a day. About 4 years ago I started knocking 1 off my 8 a day. When I was down to 4, the head rush was getting intense so I just went to 3, then 2 but in half size rollies- filter in each end of rizla, roll as normal then cut in half.
Then I hurt my back and couldn’t get to the garden very easily from bed, so I quit from 2 to zero 15 days ago.
The first nine days- hell! Nausea, stomach ache, intense dizziness, short of breath, palpitations, blurry vision and racing heart, hoarse voice, Headache every morning and exhaustion. I also cried a lot and yelled when no one was around.
Most of that has gone or got a lot better except for the hoarse voice and worse of all the palpitations and racing heart. I get the shortness of breath sometimes too and the crying but I am ok with the crying…. the smoking was always suppressing emotions so it is ok now to have them, I can deal with that. Smoking provides a literal ‘smokescreen’ on life and I believe I will make better choices in life now that I can ‘see’ clearly.
Please can someone tell me if the racing heart and palpitations y goes away as it is really scary, and the hoarse voice- I am a singer and now I can barely speak and I am really worried that I will never sing again…..
Appreciate advice as I am not sure if I can get through this!

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