u/Clean-Wolverine6346

Just relapsed again and I’m feeling very suicidal, lonely, regretful

Lost another 2k and I’m down lifetime like 70k
But as of right now am 18k in debt,

My gf knows about my gambling and I’m getting help from free therapy 1on1, but she doesn’t know I relapsed badly today

It’s her birthday tomorrow and I already messed up special day, I just can’t confront her again that I’ve relapsed

I make 43k before taxes and it’s going to take a long time to pay my debts I just can’t do it anymore man