u/Clean-Letterhead9408

(I've already been diagnosed as Bipolar 2 and had one manic episode for a week in Dec 2025.) My mom has been having horrible hip pain since before Dec 2025, but finally got a surgery yesterday (Friday April 10th/2026). This whole week i have felt physically and mentally sluggish. Hard to eat, digest... stay awake... and it's been emotional hell before that in other ways (anxiety).

But one thing that I was able to just eat up-- was the Artemis 2 mission. I didn't know it was planned and I've always wished something like this would happen in my lifetime. Anyway-- it was something to be absorbed in and learn about.

But this week I was oscillating- terrible fears about my mom (she's 87) and excited about Artemis. Yesterday, they both went well. My mom's operation was completely successful, even though a lot of speed bumps came up before it that were unexpected. And Artemis landed.

So, I left the hospital feeling relief and stoked. I can't fall asleep. I should be exhausted. When I got home I felt high and still do. I have even taken my normal night meds. Nothing. I'm trying to wind down. I just feel blinded by happy.

Is it possible that these things (OBVIOUSLY MY MOTHER SURVIVING HITS CLOSER TO HOME), cause me to be manic high and just not sleep for a day or two? My tummy has been bad, but my mind -- sharp as a tack. Last night, i just remembered, I bought a lot of clothes online for about 45 minutes and I felt happy for the first time in days...

Insights? Thoughts? Has anyone ever been through something like this? A situation of a momentary episode that is short?

I'm going to a new doctor tomorrow. And if it works out with her, she will be indispensable to my health. But I have to go to her office and do the whole thing. And I'm partially agorophobic, which means it's hard for me to go outside, especially to new places- lots of anxiety that can affect my sleep.My eating...

So everything will be new tomorrow. Obviously. . And her and it'll be like having to meet obviously someone all over again. My last doctor who I'm trying to replace disappeared like into nowhere. I don't know if she had some malpractice problem. But she's gone and it's been 9 months, so I'm really anxious. I actually didn't see this coming.

I was very confident when I booked the appointment. I already confirmed the appointment last Friday with someone on the phone, and then by text. This afternoon, I filled-out all the forms, but now I'm gonna have to plan for leaving the house tomorrow and actually going.

And it's actually during lunchtime for me, and I have to make sure I eat, you know, regular intervals, and I find that my anxiety impacts my eating completely. And last night, I slept horribly, and I feel like there's very little I can say to myself to make myself feel better. It's really hard to go to a new doctor and I hope she's a match.

I've been going through doctors over the past 5 or 6 years like crazy. And it's not me, it's either a bad fit or somehow, the doctor isn't a good doctor and it's insanely frustrating.

Anyway, I know if any of you are reading this It's probably already Monday. Which is when I have my appointment, but I just realized how anxious I am and that even if I am starving at the appointment- If I try to go to a restaurant after it, that's more anxiety. Because a new restaurant feeds into my agoraphobia and just more anxiety.

So it sucks and I'm doing this doctor's appointment to take care of myself and yet I still gotta deal with all this anxiety. And it's not fair. And it's just I feel like I don't have any clue how to make it better.