I’ve had a very difficult past few weeks in my personal life (thankfully things are settling down now), which has led to me being extremely negligent about my physical health and wellbeing (4 hours of sleep / night, barely eating or drinking water). I hit a breaking point last week and completely phoned it in on an assignment, which is unlike me. But I was so delusionally tired and the deadline was the deadline. I was so exhausted that I could barely see or think straight.
I turned the assignment in with a bad feeling in my gut (a feeling that usually turns out to be accurate). lo and behold, i review the submitted material today and it cites outdated law and has numerous inaccuracies. i spent a few hours revising and followed up with the partner, but i’m having trouble not beating myself up. I didn’t want to make it look like I was making excuses, so I didn’t mention that I had a lot going on personally (I know that proactively resolving the issue is much preferable to making excuses). But now I fear that the partner is going to question the accuracy of my work product going forward and perhaps she thinks that I’m a fuck up. I don’t know why, but I feel like I always fuck things up with this ONE partner.
I feel guilty for letting my sleep and self care slip to such a point that my work product is suffering and perhaps my work reputation as well :(