u/Clarebroccolibee

So short version and yes I’m jumping the gun.

Lost my job of 9 years last week. Really hurt, really not doing well mentally but bills to pay, so straight on the jobsearch.

Interview yesterday and think it went well, think they liked me but my head is constantly, constantly worrying about a new role, saying I can’t do it, saying I’ll fail, they will get sick of me asking questions, I’m not capable my CV just looks ok.

I know this is my brain trying self-preservation but I’ve also been doing this one role comfortably for years, mainly wfh for many years as well since covid..I’m just frightened and I think I’m going to hinder my own progress at something new, because honestly my head won’t shut up, I’m genuinely really scared and feel like this (my second) redundancy has traumatised me and I won’t be able to move on, work or achieve further. I’m struggling honestly

If money was no object? If my husband died, I would sign up without hesitation. I couldn’t cope without him and his beautiful voice, even though I know it wouldn’t really be ‘him’.

He wouldn’t be a great subject though honestly as he’s not a ‘heavy user’ of social media, but yeah, I do honestly think I’d have to sign up and I wondered if anyone else would, even just the typing/phonecall tier.

No deep post really, just finding it hard and devastating.

I have my “final meeting”/ serve of redundancy tomorrow. 9 years up in smoke. My job is going overseas, they can pay them less.

Second time, got laid off previously from a job of 4 years. Funny how a phone call can ruin your life.

Got the news last week and I’ve cried every day since. Feels like I’ll never work again, it’s so competitive out there and my confidence is rock bottom right now.

Just applying for things I don’t want, I want my job. I will miss it so much. So down, so worried. So tearful.