u/CivilLoad8417

Hey guys, I’m in desperate need of prayers and advice. I’m an Orthodox woman in my 20s, I really want to start a family, but I have severe social anxiety that’s taking over my life. I have been putting myself out by forcing myself to do things that make me extremely anxious, but I just feel worse about myself cause I can never act like my true self around anyone other than family or my close friends. I’m very subconscious about my social life and how few friends I have, I don’t go out much. I’ve been forcing myself to be more involved with the church but it’s so hard to be around people constantly. I feel like there’s something extremely wrong with me. This feeling comes and goes but right now I feel like I hate myself, i’m crying myself to sleep tonight, I can’t bear this feeling, please pray for me to get better. I thought I had made progress but I made it to a church retreat and I’m so uncomfortable. Nothing wrong with other people at all, they’ve been amazing, it’s worse when you know the problem is yourself!