Dear friend: word of the day indolence
Dear friend: indolence is defined as loss of interest or inability to feel excitement. In essence your thrill is gone only the hard cold reality remains. Hope is often lost. The only way is to walk away from this toward something better. Chart a different course. This is what I know I must do. I don't want to spend another day in disillusionment. I want to feel joy it's my God given right. I don't know just leave is anymore. In my mind everyone I come in contact with is addicted to chaos but me. I crave peace everyday life is hard enough. I am weary from hearing the same rhetoric day in and day out I refuse to be spoonfed lies. I don't want a fake happy life. I look around and I wonder what other depravity I am going to encounter. I know I'm revising a plan to exit that which not only doesn't serve me but also that which hold me back from the life I need to have not want to have. It seems my indolence is the first step back into the unknown again. I hope this time when I'm in the void of time I am truly able to create love and experience what I need