I really don't know what to do with this
Hello, first time to confess here (F30). I previously have a long term bf, ex na, 2yrs pa kami nag break. My first and only body count. Thing is we were very active sexually before, so now na wala na kami hindi ko alam anong gagawin kapag high sexdrive. I didn't even know na mas mataas libido ng mga nasa 30s. Sobrang nakaka frustrate.
I already bought toys, pero it's not the same. I want the dirty talks, yung thrill if mahuhuli if nasa public place, or the cuddles after the deed. I'm thinking of fubu or ons, but nakakatakot din naman haha. Sometimes I just want to post here in reddit looking for someone to eat me lang, no pene. It makes me sad and frustrated.
I don't want to have a relationship just because in heat ako lol. And wala pa akong nakikitang guy na magcocommit ako. I cannot even talk to my friends about this kasi yung image ko sa iba ay professional, jolly, innocent lol. Baka magulat sila with this frustration I'm currently experiencing.
Pero really, nasa point na ako na gusto ko na lang humatak ng random grab delivery driver kapag umoorder ako. Kung hindi lang talaga nangingibabaw yung pride and ego ko rin na huuuy siraulo na ba ako.