Final "Fling" Before Chemo
I start the Keynote 522 regimen tomorrow. Before and all through this "journey"(so far), I've eaten healthy, exercised, taken good care of myself, done all the preventative things, and kept a fairly positive attitude. But today I just don't want to. So I just had three brownies for lunch with a second cup of coffee, just in case I can't stand any of that tomorrow. I've done whatever prep I can in the house, my chemo bag is ready to go, and the port I just got on Tuesday is feeling better. Tomorrow I'll be back to taking meticulous care of my health, but I'm planning to do fuck all this afternoon, and maybe just have ice cream for supper. I always wondered what I'd do if I looked in a crystal ball and could see that there would be a big change coming. Would I write someting meaningful and pithy? Would I play my favorite music and sing and dance? Seems as though the answer is nope. Brownies, ice cream, and maybe a nap. Fuck cancer.