Just how do you enjoy life with chronic health issues when it overwhelms you every day?
And for me it’s just getting worse with age.
I’m 53 - I have a long history with digestive issues (stomach through to rectal area) always told its ’IBS’ as all test come back clear but boy of boy it’s every day,give me a break!
I also have endometriosis, adenomyosis, a long long history of anxiety, ocd, panic disorder and depression and was diagnosed with inattentive adhd last year, joint hypermobility which is probably EDS but my GP won’t take me seriously (in the U.K. so no private health). I have also been enjoying the glories of perimenopause the last 6 years which has literally been the straw breaking the camels back so to speak.
Throw in 5 years of school refusal and meltdowns from my son (who is asd but thankfully better now he’s 21 and out of school) and the last 8 years helping to care for my mother who is now in advanced Alzheimer’s, I can safely say that I feel absolutely F*****
Every day is ground hog day full of unpredictable digestive woes, anxiety, depression, weird bodily symptoms which start off more anxiety and panic.
I only feel better in the evening and at night when everything is dark and peaceful, day time hours are my nemesis for some reason.
Does anyone else feel like this? Like they just go onto autopilot every day just pushing through until they can crash out and rest? I feel so sad that I dread each day because of how I feel physically and mentally/emotionally.
No amount of eating well, keeping hydrated, exercising, meditation (or medication!) etc brings me any relief from this.
I don’t expect to feel fantastic every day especially as I get older but it all feels like such hard work and I’m done with pretending I’m ok.
(Sorry for the rant, I’m just feeling so sorry for myself today lol).