Completely unconfident as a new driver
I'm 16 and I've been driving for a few months now and already graduated drivers Ed, passed my written test but haven't taken my drivers test yet. There was a period of time where I did not have up-to-date glasses (I'm legally blind) and my eyes were bad when I was going through drivers Ed and when I was waiting for my new prescription there was a large amount of time where I wasn't driving at all, and it was winter. I recently got back into it and I'm 90% sure I forgot how to drive. I have a twin sister and she also took a break from driving as well but now she's way more confident than I am and way more ready for the driving test, by now both of us could have our license if we just pass the driving test, but that feels so unreachable to me.
I have horrible spacial awareness and hand eye coordination, I'm directionally challenged, I speed too much, I drift too much, switching lanes is a nightmare and most of all, I hate parking. When I'm driving, both my mom and my sister are harping at me and it really discourages me. I should be at a better place in my driving capabilities at this point but I'm frustrated and I don't feel like I'm improving at all.
I usually fake it til I make it, makes me more confident, but I'm like embarrassed at this point.