How Do Folks Deal With The Suffocating Feeling That You Won't Have The Skills To Complete A Project That You've Had In Mind For A While?
So, I've had a couple story ideas for a manga that I wanted to make for a couple (maybe 4-ish) years and I think about these ideas all the time. I've gone over multiple iterations of my characters arcs and storylines but I don't want to start putting these thoughts onto paper (or a doc or something idk) because my art is mediocre. I've been super busy with a bunch of stuff like school and whatnot over the years so I haven't been dedicating a ton of time to art but I feel like I NEED to have good art in order for me to start these stories. Sometimes I'll get flashes of inspiration for pieces involving them but I'm not good enough yet to make them the way I see them and then I practice and start to freak out a bit and worry and worry and stress over the fact that I'm not there yet and then I get frustrated and sometimes I feel like I want to cry but I know it's silly to do so especially as a young adult in their 20's over my own helplessness. I don't know, I just don't know what to do. I know art takes time and like I said there's stuff going on in my life but I just get so stressed and sad. I've also been struggling with motivation to really dig in my heels and dedicate some more free time to art just because I get intimidated. I've been trying to keep myself practicing at least a little bit by doing at least one small drawing a day (I was originally doing the 100-Day Challenge but now I'm past 100). My art isn't crazy bad but it's also kind of irking me to look at some pieces because it's not what I want which is my fault.
I'm sorry for this long post, I'm just freaking out and I guess I feel kinda alone when doing so.