24f I feel so sick to my stomach. Was at work and had to leave early. I knew it was coming but didn’t want to accept it. I live a 6 hour flight away from my family dog that we rescued back into 2020 during covid. He is the most perfect angel ever and i have been uncontrollably crying since last night when I found the news that they were putting him down. I never have felt so connected to an animal.
He is a pitbull terrier mix. He was found on the streets of Newark with a severed eye. My mom rescued him from a pitbull shelter where he was going to put down and euthanized in 2020. when i first met him, i was scared because we were used to labs, springer spaniels, more hunting dogs.
His name was Boss and he was the most perfect animal ever. So gentle and poise. I imagined him to be a prince in a past life. I always went on long long walks like more than 4 miles and i started to bring him with me and he loved them. We would hike together all of the time and I would bring him to the beach and he LOVED it.
He was my soulmate and I knew it was coming to his end when i left for my new job.
1 week ago my my sister told me they were gonna put him down while i was at work. OBVIOUSLY i start balling my eyes out. Last night they made it official and all of last night and this morning I have been uncontrollably sobbing and i went into work. I just left because i felt so lightheaded and sad. Just crying like a baby uncontrollably. Now on the bus crying writing this. I feel so crazy for crying and sensitive. I felt bad i had to leave work. Is it weird?