Deep analisis paralisis
I have an extremely analitical mind, I basically analyse anything around me, from the design of the butter spreader to the design of sidewalks, roads, rocket engine technologies, AI development designs, Authority ruling, economics.... And I have something called Hyperphantasia, so I don't just analyse, I fix them mentally, I design better sidewalks, better roads, think about new and better designs for cooling systems in rocket nozzles, AI memory systems, airplane aerodynamics, basically every flaw in anything I see I fix internally, I always value the extreme functionality and efficiency of every system I analyse, any inneficiency I spot immediately whithin almost anything.
I have an incredible imagination, I recognize that in myself, I visualize temperature differences, pressure differences, friction, atoms themselves, I can visualize tiny balls as atoms inside systems, I visualize color differences for temperature and pressure in a zoomed out scale, if I zoom in I can vibrate atoms to simulate temperature and change how close between them they are for pressure, I can visualize friction happening between 2 different kind of matter in a zoomed in scale, I see the atoms hitting each other and creating heat (more vibration/movement), I have an insane simulator in my head.
But overanalyzing stuff mixed with the clean and smooth functionality of my imagination is actually been a burden for me since the pandemic, I have a very deep analysis paralisis in me, and for most of the time I didn't even know why because before 2020 I was NOT like this, I could read a book I wasn't interested, I could make plans and projects, start them, develop them, troubleshoot and finish it back then, I just recently arrived in the conclusion that my over analysis of the world + fixing them in an environment without any friction (my imagination), made me extremely intolerant towards friction.
A few days ago I was watching a video on YouTube, it was a tutorial for beginners on onshape, at one moment, after I already made some progress and made already a 3D shape very similar to the video, the guy added a spline comming out of the shape, in his app it worked perfectly, but when I tried I couldn't make the spline come out of the surface (3D) instead of it forcing it to be drawn in the surface (2D), I tried to find the fix for around 30-40 minutes, but then I have up because the fact that it should be simple and easy like in the video, but it wasn't, and the fact that it wasn't killed my motivation completely, and this patter happens in basically every problem that shows up in my face, I can only manage to do stuff if there are consequences, clear structure or shared effort (but even then, it's difficult sometimes, but way more manageable), but this is destroying my life I believe, my mind makes me have great ideas that could probably been translated into very insane stuff in reality, but I can't because I feel like facing "stupid bullshit" problems that only exist because someone designed that thing that way (I'm not purely blaming others, tho I acknowledge that humans are terrible in designing intuitive UI/UX and systems, I feel like everything could be designed on a more concise way for easy understanding for those that are just begining to understand, even systems that look complex could be designed better), but again, I can't move, facing those frictions is like poison to my motivation.
And I tried everything, I tried breaking tasks in less steps, I tried giving myself a break every 15-30 minutes, I even tried using AI to do what I could make it do, but nothing really helped considerably. The ONLY thing I noticed that helps me considerably is shared effort (team mates), and hands-on work tend to be more satisfying to me, I believe that's because of immediate feedback.
Does anyone have been through this in the past? How did u deal with it? So you have anything at all that could help me ?