New here and really struggling being on my own, divorced, no car, friends abandoning me - I can't see a way out
I have been reading a lot of posts here and they have helped me realise that there are plenty of people out there like me. My 14 year marriage started to break down a couple of years ago, and we slept in separate areas of the flat. I started heavily drinking but was never violent or angry. I wanted to fix the marriage so I went into detox. I came out to find a note saying that my wife was already seeing another man and had gone to live with him and wasn't coming back.
I don't have many friends as a lot abandoned me instead of supporting me through my relationship/drink issues. I lost my driving license as I my wife called the police and I was found in my car trying to keep the peace, but I'd had a few drinks (a crime in the UK).
I am struggling with not drinking but I am sticking to it, but it has been five months living alone and it is only getting worse.
I just had a friend over for a chat and I found myself feeling really anxious and wanted to be alone, but then I hate being alone. It's a no win situation.
I hate my situation and I cannot see any way out. Please.... anyone... support/advice would be really appreciated. Thank you.