It's been a while since I have written here and the only reason I I write this is because I really don't understand. It feels like you reach out all the time but it also looks like you never have. Everything that I felt for you was genuine and it has not gone away. I've never hung on to hope for somebody as long as I have for you and I'm still hanging in there. You probably will never read this but in the off chance that you do Reach Out even if it's to tell me to go away or to come to you or anything I just need to know. You once told me that the best thing I could do would be to focus on bettering myself that that would maybe get your attention again and I've done that but I don't think you've taken the time to look. I'm out here with the horses maybe you could join for an afternoon.
C