u/ChemicalCataclysms

i don’t know who this will find or what answers Ill get, but i need advice. im a Christian. ive been one my entire life. but recently ive been exploring the world of things such as gore media, body horror and things that are extremely edgy, not to mention im pretty goth. I want to keep my faith so badly but Ive been having so many doubts. in the state the world is in, its hard to believe and I dont want to make the lord sad or whatever but my faith is slipping. and I truly want to be able to love gore and stuff without having to worry about what the lord thinks. i dont know what to do.