How do I know which fig to choose?
I pose my question like this because I often think of Sylvia Plath poem The Fig Tree. I have so many things I want to do and I don’t know what’s best for me. I went to school to be a history teacher but my freshmen year covid hit and it completely destroyed the experience for me. So I just graduated with my degree in history with no idea what was in store for me.
I moved to a new state and got a job as a historic tour guide. I loved it, but I hated the company I worked for.. recently I switched companies and I find that I’m already dreading going into work. I am incredibly bored and I feel like what I’m doing is no longer fulfilling.
I have so many figs in my tree but I’m not sure what is best for me. Especially when the job market is horrendous. I’m happy I have a job that pays a livable wage (no benefits though) but I’m not happy with the job itself.
Just some things I’ve thought about; wildlife conservation, criminology, work as a cook/baker in my friends cafe (she’s slowly turning it into a business, as of rn it’s just a coffee cart), teaching, archeologist, public history historian. But of course a lot of these things involve me going back to school and truthfully idk if I can afford that.
I stare at my fig tree trying to decide which one is best for me, but as time goes by I feel like I can see my figs slowly starting to turn.