i miss him so much after 6 months
i wish he would just talk to me one more time to patch things out. he was more than just my boyfriend, he was my best friend. when he cut me off i completely lost control of my life and i am still suffering the consequences of it
its like 3 years of my life is instantly gone and i can’t do anything about it
he was extremely manipulative to the point where i questioned my own reality - i began wondering if i have some mental illness my therapist said i absolutely do not have - and i don’t want to be with him again. at least i don’t think so. but i want to just talk again so it doesn’t have to end like this
he has me unblocked but i’m pretty sure he muted me which makes it even more painful. i wish i could go back in time and keep how i felt to myself. it ended because i asked him when he would be able to take our relationship seriously again and commit to me