u/Chance-Contract-4370

Hi, so for a little context, I know this may be just some illness and not a supernatural thing... But it really does feel like something supernatural. I feel like I am being stalked by something. Something not entirely human, and it's not simply based on a gut feeling, my experiences point towards something seriously off.

If you want more context for what I'm about to explain, check my other posts, I'm not sure if I can explain it properly, and I guess the story kind of changes every day, because I might remember a small detail that I've forgotten and forget another, or something new has occurred.

Anyways, this post may be a bit eerie and might sound fake and like I'm a pick me girl (I swear I'm not faking this, this has been happening for a very long time and gradually gotten worse and I'm genuinely a bit freaked out), but please don't call me a faker or sick, I am well aware of how all of this is going to sound.

Also I am already going to warn you, there will be a bit of NSFW stuff here, not really sexually explicit stuff (except for maybe one, but not really. Normal, medical talk. Not smut), but more of like self-harm and other stuff.

Okay, so, at the start of everything, before I even started to think about these coincidences that slowly didn't anymore seem like coincidences or just my mind playing tricks, I knew something was up with my life. I never felt like I was truly alone, I was a lot more scared of the dark than other kids because I could sense something was there. And I know little kids have a lot of paranoia, but as I've grown older I realized it wasn't.

A couple months ago I started playing a game, a VN (visual novel) called Duality, and got curious about the subject of Fae (because the game revolves around a guy who shares a body with a changeling), and started researching a lot about it. It didn't take me long to realize that some of the coincidences around me really did seem like something a Fae might do. Not in a bad way, I guess, but still. So I decided to ask on Reddit and we came to the conclusion that it indeed must be Fae, that I might have some important task I have to complete at some point, or that I never might have to do anything. Hard to tell.

So, I let it be and decided to go on with my life. Everything was going fine until I started feeling extremely uneasy and the coincidences became hard to ignore. And the consequences were getting worse (I don't know if they're consequences, but like... My state, I guess, started to get a lot worse and a lot more rapidly). I decided to ask again, and wanted to see if anyone had any thoughts on that did they want to harm me or not. Apparently it wasn't anything malicious according to my commenters opinion (I had one commenter), or that it at least wasn't anything form hell... I am very unsure about everything right now, not that I don't trust others with more experience, but if you get it you get it. It's not really fun to be on the unsure side.

Anyways, I tried to ignore it after that, decided on that because the person said it didn't want anything bad from me, I could safely continue existing the same way as before. Dead wrong.

Alright, so, now I'll explain a bit of my experiences, and here there will be some NSFW stuff...

Okay, so, starting off, I've survived countless things I shouldn't have. Overdose on a beta-blocker so much it should have been able to kill a full grown man with a slow metabolism (I'm a 15 y/o girl), and survived with no consequences, overdosed on guanfacine, even though it wasn't much, I only had a slightly low pulse.

I also survived when I was younger a car speeding straight towards me. It was centimeters away from me before it came to weird, abrupt stop.

And the most recent one happened 4 days ago. I was walking up the stairs and put my foot in an awkward way so I should have fallen on my back down several stairs in a spiral staircase. I should've have, I should have lost my balance by all sense! Yet for some reason just as I was about to fall, it felt like something was supporting me from behind so I managed to gain my footing. I should have fallen.

Okay, anyways, continuing on, I guess animals are like more or less passive towards me. Either like passive or they seem interested. I've maybe a couple times seen a frightened animal (one afraid of me).

Even a cat who my sister's godmother said HATED to be touched, I managed to pet its tail, and it stayed there. I was of course a bit younger, and didn't know this before I casually mentioned their cat seemed to like being gently caressed by the tail, but my mom and sister's godmother seemed surprised and said that she would definitely try scratching anyone even coming near her tail.

I also keep on loosing things around me, for example a couple evenings ago I was eating chips and dropped one, and I didn't find it anywhere although I was sure I dropped it. This happens to me quite a lot. And I also very often lose all my bracelets that I've gotten from my younger sister or friends, or the one I bought three of (for me and my two sisters), and one day when I had it on (I never took it off), I suddenly noticed it was just... Gone. For no reason.

A necklace I wanted to gift my older brother once was gone just as I was supposed to give it to him, and a lot of other things have disappeared without reason. Most things I end up finding again later in entirely new places. But the food and bracelets I haven't.

Also when I was like 1-2 years old, I remember being very reckless, so I used to jump off furniture a lot, and for a kid so young, it is rather dangerous. And so I remember that when I'd jump with my stomach first (which I did quite often), I'd suddenly start floating in the air as if someone was holding me, and sometimes I would even move around. And if I tried to struggle or direct my feet so they were facing the ground, I'd be slowly put down to the ground.

But I never managed to do it in front of anyone else, except for my younger sister who was like maybe 0-1 years old. So, nobody believed me and I still believe it did happen to me up until now, but everybody around me thinks I've dreamed it. I have decided to tell my family that I don't believe it anymore to get them off my back with the teasing, but I do still secretly believe in that I did in fact fly or float or something similar.

Also it never worked unless I jumped from somewhere high enough with my stomach first, and when i got older it stopped working too like that. But there was one time I was so bored out of my mind that I wished really hard to start floating, and I did. For a short while. And my parents and younger sister was there, but they didn't seem to notice me at all. I know it wasn't just a vision, because I could see what they were watching on the TV and I shouldn't have been able to see it from all the way where I was.

Another thing that happened to me when I was very young was that I might've wished for things really hard (I mean when I was like 4 or 5), like toys or something I really wanted, and during the night, if I did it, I might've sometimes seen a ripple in the air, and the next day wake up to a similar toy on my floor.

Okay, so, I know this is going to sound a bit weird, but I used to have a boyfriend, I saw him more of as a friend, but I guess I was curious about having a relationship and I was really close to him, so we entered a relationship. A couple months into the relationship we start having sex, but the guy has no idea that you have to prep a woman to not to hurt them. He was extremely arrogant and a bit of a misogynist. Anyways, I never managed to get any orgasms no matter how I tried. Neither have I gotten with masturbathing in several different ways.

My ex broke up with me via text just on the like first day of summer break or something, and I didn't see him again. He tried asking to see me like a bit before his birthday, several months after silence, and since I usually am a pretty forgiving person, after a lot of contemplation, I decided that everyone deserves a second chance. We got back together after that meeting, but he was just as bad. Only now I noticed clearly just how bad he was. He didn't give a damn about my pleasure or my pain. If I tried saying I was tired and that I wasn't sure if I wanted to have sex, he'd try to insist on it anyway. And he was really close to me, so he knows I struggle with saying no.

Anyways, a month or so later I tried breaking up face-to-face, but my mom told me that's how most murders and rapes happen in relationships and that he texted me anyway, so I texted him a very gentle message. He started insulting me and then begged me back. I haven't heard from him since. But apparently my sister said she saw him stalk me once back home.

Also I think he hasn't been online for forever. And I know he hasn't blocked me, so. It might be something has happened to him or not. But it has been like several months since this. It was like before October or something.

I know I used to be very much of a social butterfly and had loads of friends when I was little. But it changed, because as I grew I noticed the people around me either hated or feared me. And I had no idea why. Even my family seems that way.

I used to be a very emotional person, and while I understand it is part of growing up not to be as emotional anymore, I don't think it means I should be feeling so disconnected from humanity I don't even care if I was the reason my parents or anyone else was tortured and killed or something.

Ask me a couple months back, I'd never want to harm anyone unless I was given a reason to. Now I hardly need a reason to be enough agitated to seriously think of doing something drastic (I won't let myself do anything tho). This is one of the things I told was becoming a lot worse during the last few days. I barely feel I fit in with people.

Also I used to be extremely strong and athletic. When I was like 7 or 8, I used to be able to do one hand pull ups and push ups like it was nothing, and run on top. I know I had it right because even my teachers were amazed. But I slowly developed a heart disorder, it's undiagnosed, but the doctors do admit to seeing something a bit wrong. I might faint or have very bad palpations even if I'm just laying down, exercising, walking, standing up, sitting. Doing anything at all and it'll come. Specifically when I exercise. Although it still comes randomly even outside exercise.

And for the last few nights... I have been experiencing something I haven't in a very long time. The fear of going to sleep. Even with lights on it feels like something is waiting for me in the shadows. Watching and waiting. And was it a couple nights ago or something I heard a voice call out my second name---the name I use at school. In my classmates/friends voice. Except it wasn't hers. And nobody was supposed to be there. I stayed in my room and ignored the sound, it never came back.

Although this night I heard something rattling or moving or making kinda a bubbly but rattling noise underneath my bed. It was 00.30, and everyone else was supposed to be asleep. Yet it was so clear I could tell it was coming from under my bed. I stayed in bed for the night, I didn't attempt to move from there.

I'm not saying I haven't had these before, I have, but a lot less. I suspect it has something to do with the necklace I got a couple years back from a guy at a cruise. He told me I'd forget him by the time I turned 15 (this was like 3 years ago or so), but I haven't. I got at the last day of the cruise one of those glows tickets pendants with the bracelet version hanged around the stick on the necklace. I hanged it up in front of my window in my room, and I've been able to sleep slightly better ever since.

But like eight days ago a window cleaner was at our place, and he shut it behind my window by mistake. So now it's technically not in my room anymore. And I didn't notice this before a couple days of the weirdness happening around me getting more and more intense.

I can't explain it, but I have this urgent feel to get it back in my room, but I can't... My mom lost the window key just conveniently enough. I can't get it back in my room! She's not going to buy a new window key, and I don't have any money. What am I supposed to do?

Or maybe it is the fact thatI left out one offering only (although I stated it will probably only be a one time offering, and that if there would be more, it would not be consistent)? I have no idea.

I am starting to doubt this is just a Faerie or Shadow guardian. I feel something is very wrong. When I was writing my last question to r/faeries, I felt like something really bad would happen, or that something very angry was staring right through me. But I saw nothing.

Can anyone explain things to me? What is your opinion? What should I do? What could it be? And what could happen want? And whatever else... I'm honestly getting increasingly disturbed by this.

Uhm... So this may sound very weird, since I already posted a post on whether or not I was being watched. And the people there came to the same conclusion with me that I in fact most likely was being watched by Fae. I mentioned surviving things that shouldn't be survivable several times. Loosing objects I was sure I had and then finding them somewhere later on. And other things such as feeling like being watched over.

But now I'm really starting to freak out because I was going to just continue on with my life without thinking much of it anymore because these are clearly not malicious Fae (I think??). And it still does seem that way. But now their intervention is a lot clearer to me.

For example today I almost slipped and fell on my way upstairs. I should have fallen. By all means my foot got positioned in such a way as I was stepping up that I should have fallen a fatal fall down the stairs. Yet I didn't. It was almost like something was holding onto me, because the few moments of panic while I was expecting the fall, I didn't fall, even while still in that position I should've fallen from. I could almost physically feel being held. And it was like my foot and body was supported so I could get into a better position.

Another example is that I've been wearing a lot of friendship bracelets with my siblings. But they always disappear even when I've had them in my hand. Never to be seen again, of course. While most things I have found a while afterwards, these are the ones I've never seen again.

Yet another example, now that I think back at it, is that when I was younger I used to see these weird ripples in air that moved, and I could make wishes to them. At the time they were silly wishes like "I wish I had that one toy I really wanted!". And believe it or not, the next morning I woke up to find the toy I wished for on my messy floor. I am positive it is not just a false memory, since it happened so many times.

Now, another childhood memory from when I was very, very little. Like maybe 1-2 years old or so. I can only vaguely remember this, but I remember being very reckless and careless back then. I used to jump from tall furniture (for an infant/toddler), sometimes even with my stomach first. I cannot remember whether or not I mentioned this during my last post, but my body started floating. Except not really. It was almost like something holding onto my body and bringing me high into air (very high for an infant. It was like someone tall lifting me above their head or something of the sort).

I also remember that as long as I didn't struggle against the grip (e.g. stayed in the position of my stomach facing down the ground), I could stay in the air and sometimes I could even wish to move and it worked. And if I wanted down, all I had to do was try shifting my body so my feet were facing the ground.

Of course, little me tried showing off to everyone around me. But it didn't work in front of other people. Or at least, even if it did, I didn't start floating. Maybe something was softening the fall, because falling didn't hurt as much. Although, once in front of other people, without even having to jump, years later when I was like 6-8 years old, I wished really hard to float again because I was placed in timeout while my parents and younger sister were watching TV. Never had it after I was like 2-3 years old happened again (but it did happen several times and several days). Except for this time. My parents or sister didn't even notice it. And I can still remember looking at them and then at the show playing. I felt like calling out and saying "I told you I could fly when I was little!", but something felt wrong about doing so, so I didn't. After a while I was placed back down onto the ground again.

If I were to list a bunch of other weird coincidences, I would go on forever here. So I guess animals behave weirdly towards me(?). Like, they either like me, or then they're like kinda passive. Even wild animals. I could once approach a wild squirrel so I was only like a centimeter from it and it didn't react to me much. It only stared at me curiously. And sometimes if I really get curious of an animal, I usually have managed to get a lot closer than most other people attempting before they run away. Although they don't seem scared as they do so. More like they got better things to do or something.

I also used to be an extreme social butterfly when I was younger, but upon growing up, slowly I started becoming more and more detached from humanity altogether. Now I cannot even feel proper love towards my parents, and can even on a daily basis casually think of being the cause of my parents or someone else's death without regret. And it kinda scares me, while at the same time not. Because I used to feel so repulsed by those thoughts!

I also used to have a lot of friends but for some reason, they always seem to grow distant really fast, almost like they don't like me. But how come everyone in my life has been like that, I'm soon 15! Surely everyone my age has met at least one person who didn't later turn on you just because? Maybe this sounds a bit dramatic... But it does feel really scary. Yet at the same time not. Like a comfort that no one ever got close to me. But it doesn't feel like my own emotion. Like it does. But it doesn't.

Also, a bit nsfw (like, not nsfw nsfw, but like... A warning of mentioning of self-harm, I'll say when it ends. But no NSFW was allowed... I'm not sure if this counts or not. I hope not. If I do get a message saying this wasn't okay I'll immediately edit and delete this part), but I sometimes cut myself. And at first when I started doing it I could pierce through skin smoothly. But nowadays, even with fresh or old wounds, no matter how sharp the blade, if I've used it once already, it can't cut through the tissue properly.

Okie, the sh stuff is done.

Also I sometimes hear creaks and footsteps when I shouldn't see them. Even when no one is there. Especially while in my own room or alone.

Okay, so while I was writing this post I started to get a really weird and bad feeling. I feel more tired than I usually do and my head is throbbing and I'm getting brain fog, among with like the feeling that maybe I shouldn't post this... Creepy...

Anyways, I'm really freaked out by now by what the Fae could want, and which court we're talking about... Also, no, I am not schizophrenic, and no, I am pretty sure I have not hallucinated or dreamt these experiences. And no, I am not exaggerating things. I am genuinely confused and kinda scared. I am fully aware of how this sounds. I know. But I really need to know if anyone else has had similar experiences or if someone knows what's happening and what to do! Any help is appreciated.