u/ChairDue8357

I need to just vent. Lost our girl of 18 years today. I feel so much pain. I don’t feel worthy of eating. I can’t go anywhere in my house without thinking of her. I hear her steps still and see her in my peripheral. I smell her. Everything just reminds me of her. This feels so heavy and unfair. I feel like I could have done more to help. I feel angry and guilty I wish I cuddled her more and let her sleep on the bed more. I wish so much stuff but it’s too late now. I feel like I took it all for granted. I never imagined this day to come but it did and now I’m suffering beyond. I feel like crying more but nothing comes out. I know she’s not suffering and in pain anymore but what I would do to just have her back. I hope she knew how loved she was. I hope she didn’t know what we were doing at the hospital. I wish she could talk to us. I hope I see signs of her spirit. I crave her so much. This hurt feels like something I’ve never felt in my life. Everything aches and feels so heavy. I miss her so much. When does this pain go away please I beg.