I got diagnosed with autism, general anxiety, and major depressive disorder.
I struggle a lot with leaving the house unless I’m accompanied by someone I trust. I suffer from suicide ideation at times and have cognitive issues. I also have a hard time talking to people in general, whether it's on the phone or in person. I also avoided my supervisors at my last job and nearly got fired for it. I ultimately chose to quit because my mental health was suffering and I sometimes have physical symptoms as well.
I’m worried because my primary care doctor has notes saying the medication for anxiety was working, even though there are also notes where I state that they aren’t doing anything and heightening my anxiety, which is why I chose not to take the pills (I took two different kinds for 6-9 months), but the way that it's written, I worry that they will take that as I'm cured.
I believe most of my anxiety is from my autism, which is partially why I sought out a diagnosis in the first place. I need a therapist who specializes in autism, but it's hard to find one who does and every time I get a therapist, it's usually for anxiety and depression, which infuriates me because I feel like I'm not getting the help I need. I had trouble keeping up with my appointments after nearly a year of seeing my first therapist and now after four months, I’m in the process of getting a new one, but I haven’t reported it to DDS yet. I’m worried it will hurt my chances because even doing virtual appointments is hard for me and I just recently went to my primary care doctor last month after constantly cancelling appts. due to anxiety.
I don’t know what I’ll do if I get denied because I don’t have any support and I definitely cannot go back to work. I did note in the function report that I thought getting a service dog and disability would help me pay for a therapist who specializes in autism, but that could have been a waste of time.
Note: I got a call from the person working on my case and she asked me if I’d be willing to do a psych eval and I said yes, which makes me think they don’t have enough evidence to support my claims. I think my autism assessment results might help, but worried the lack of treatment is what will ultimately do me in. Unless I report I’m seeing a new therapist and then switch to the one I want after getting approved.