Yelled at my puppy now she growls at me
Okay so to begin with, I’ve had her for two weeks tomorrow. And tomorrow she turns 10 weeks.
This is an olde english bulldog so she growls alot and that’s not concerning since I learned that she isn’t aggressive BUT, today has been different.
So she needs to nap all the time, if she does not she goes crazy. Bites really hard on your feet etc. the problem here is that she just doesn’t take a nap on her own initiative so I have to hold her and be like “shh shh” until she falls asleep, and that has been our routine everyday these two weeks, every nap. I understand that I soon won’t be able to do it as she will become bigger but for now that has helped alot.
So what happened today? She just wouldn’t sleep, she ran around biting me, didn’t let me eat because of barking and biting. I lost it, so I moved her bed to her little playpen (crates are NOT legal here) and she cried and cried, everytime she went off the bed i picked her up and put her on the bed, several times and yelled NO! NO! I feel like an asshole but I just lost it.
Since that, she growls when I am on my way to pick her up, and she bites. She literally growls and bites. This is completely different from her play bites (which also hurt but they aren’t aggressive).
The thing here is that I HAVE TO be able to pick her up since I live on the third floor and she just can’t walk those steps yet.
So again, yes I feel like a complete asshole, I’ve terrified her and I feel like I have broken her trust. I’ve been spiraling the last 4 hours and just been googling and reading reddit posts about similar stuff.
What I have tried is giving her treats and stuff when picking her up sometimes it has worked, sometimes not. Right now she is sleeping next to me on the couch because I was finally able to hold her and make her nap. But I honestly I’m scared I have fucked up, or fucked her up. She trusted me and she only has me, and I did this to her.
Today is the first day I feel like crying. These two weeks have been tough, but today was just too much and I feel horrible.
Does anyone have any good advice or just any kind words?