u/Certain-Calendar-205

For reasons I’m having to live alone for two months, and I’ve been having anxiety so awful every night that I can’t fall asleep without Benadryl to forcibly knock me out. I’m prescribed gabapentin for anxiety, and even though I’m taking it just as prescribed, it’s not helping anymore. Whenever it’s quiet and my brain still has enough energy to think, thoughts of me or my loved ones dying fills my head. I can’t stop myself from panicking. I don’t know why being alone makes me feel so afraid, but I dread the nighttime so badly now. I’ve tried to find a therapist, but it seems everyone is booked up for months. I’m just at a loss. I’m tired of feeling like this and my body is struggling without enough sleep.