It seems some kind of upheaval has taken place. I’m a Taurus, and—for some reason—many of the descriptions regarding what this sign is currently going through align perfectly with my own state of mind. I don’t usually follow horoscopes, but since we are currently in the Taurus season, algorithms have been feeding me a lot of content on the subject.
Around April 29th, I felt an immense surge of power—almost bordering on delusions of grandeur—yet on the 30th, a minor incident occurred that plunged me into a very emotionally turbulent state. What is actually happening is this: a realization that I need to make radical changes—changes that will be uncomfortable, painful, and destabilizing.
Furthermore, I already have a very small social circle, but over the last few days, I’ve gone ahead and blocked or deleted almost all of my contacts. I feel as though I will never find people who truly understand me. Perhaps such a person exists somewhere out there, but it is such a rarity that I simply don’t think I’ll ever cross paths with them. I even had to make an imaginary one (non-romantic), in the style of "Ideal Parent Figure". I’ve decided that I need to accept this as a given and figure out what, exactly, is still worth living for. I suppose I should live simply to achieve a few personal goals—to prove to myself that I *can* actually do it—things like cultivating discipline, gaining a deeper understanding of my body through embodiment practices, and perhaps finding ways to live closer to nature (which always gives me strength). That is the path I have chosen - solitary bull minding my own business. (And yes, I also do things for others - charity, support my family, etc., but that has been a given).