18F / 5"2 / 210 pound
18 F// 210 pound...
Hi everyone. It's my first time ever posting a reddit so I'm not really sure if I'm gonna make sense.
I've always been kinda chubby/fat "since childhood" I've always been the fat one with no friend. I never had bff or a friendgroup and I cant tell you if it's because of my look or something else but every person I had time to talk to and spend time with said that I'm a really good person and a good friend. My mom had me at 15 so we never had enough money to eat whatever we wanted so it was you eat what you get or go hungry so we would eat a lot of takeout and oven fried food. When I started to live with my dad more ( my dad who weight more than 350 pound ) it was you finish your plate even if you're not hungry. We would eat pizza or takeout 4 times a week or more. When I was 16 and 17 still living at my dad's and mom's house I weight like 170 pounds but wouldn't eat breakfast or lunch. I got to 160 before I stopped weighting myself because I was obsessed.
When I turned 18 in november 2025 I started to live only at my mom and at the start of 2026 I went to live with my bf of 4 years and I just recently started to care about my weight. I realised I was at 200+ and I started to get depressed. I would only work 1 or 2 days per week and otherwise I would stay at home and do nothing. Now I changed job and do a 43hours per week and walk around 6000 steps just at wotk but I still gained weight. I stopped taking my birth control like a month ago but it didn't do anything. I stopped drinking sugary drink like pop 5 month ago still no change.
I just bought a walking pad and a pilates board but I didn't use them still. I try to eat 3 times a day healthy but I always snack after like 8p.m or I crave ice cream, chips , candy ect.
I dont know what to do anymore I'm so disgusted by my body I hate it I need help.