Lately I’ve been struggling with something I can’t ignore anymore.
I say I’m a Christian. I believe in God. I pray sometimes. I go to church when I can. From the outside, it looks fine.
But when I really look at my daily life… I don’t see much difference between me and someone who doesn’t believe at all.
I still procrastinate on things I know I should do.I still choose comfort over discipline.I still struggle with the same habits I’ve been “trying to quit” for a long time.I still care too much about what people think.
And the hardest part?I’ve gotten used to it.
I’m starting to wonder if I’ve been using grace as an excuse instead of letting it change me.
Jesus said we would know people by their fruit… but what fruit do I actually have right now?
I’m not writing this because I have answers. I don’t.I’m writing this because I feel stuck between who I am and who I know I’m supposed to be.
Has anyone else gone through this?How do you move from just “believing” to actually living it out daily?