Bin Sonntag Nacht ca. 04:00 Uhr früh in Wien spontan ins Taxi gestiegen. Strecke ca. 4,8 km, Ottakringer Brauerei bis Bahnhof Meidling, Fahrtdauer max.14 bis 20 Minuten. Taxameter lief, Fahrer wollte nur bar. Ich musste kurz zum Bankomaten. Am Ende: 35 €.
Ist das für Wien/Nachttarif noch plausibel oder wurde ich abgezockt? Leider keine Rechnung/Kennzeichen.
multiple attempts over decades
started to work out a little over years
still gamed
started to read comics
was still sitting in front of my steam library
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later on I started to write poems and after decades of my life I stopped gnawing my fingernails down to the ground and stopped gaming
but even after 9 months of not gaming, I hardly find a foothold in my new life, or at least it's not that easy... but then again, not pure illusion anymore either.
mostly played rpgs my whole life, decades, many decades, before for up to 16hrsm reduced it ~15 years ago to 5-8 hrs a day.
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because of being isolated over many years, even though I had girlfriends here and there, covid just ruined my social life, and I moved to the outer outskirts of my city
isolated myself, had to cycle everyday 1hr total, guess that helped me a lot too.
really hard trying to get back into life, the self hatred often made things far harder, my broken back which doesn't allow me to move completely free...
what helped me the most was to memorize poems 1:1, I've now poems for 30min in my head and was able to stop the flood of thoughts because of them.
Only downside to all of this, the loneliness nearly busted my brain, so I started a new extremely expensive hobby, which I hope I can control over the coming months...
Else qi gong and wim hof is a blast.
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I hardly ever think back at gaming and only because I tried over and over again to find something in my life to hang on to and finally found it, but it's hard, but better than to sleep through my whole life.