Hi all. This is very lengthy and I am so sorry, but am hoping for some insight or literally any kind feedback/suggestions about fears I have. I have read many various posts in here already, and I feel a bit hopeless about my inner conflict here. ☹️
I’ve experienced miserable, dangerous menstrual pain and conditions since I was 12. Passed out at school and in the shower, gone to the ER, etc. Heavy bleeding, horrendous, searingly painful cramps. I’ve missed a minimum of 3-4 days per month from school, work, and life for the last 18 years due to the severity of pain during cycle. I have had imagery done, numerous ultrasounds, testing, had a bisalp surgery last Winter, and nothing structurally wrong internally has ever shown up (other than cysts).
In regard to pain relief during cycle, literally nothing has ever helped me for 18 years.
I’ve been on the pill, every NSAID I can safely tolerate, Mefenamic acid, baths, homeopathic medicine, sex, tea, movement, etc.
I’m 200% willing and wanting to go through with subtotal hysterectomy and I finally think my Gyn could perhaps get me approved, but I’m very apprehensive because:
A- I’m beyond horrified of the cuff situation and possible prolapse, and I’d very much prefer to keep my cervix intact if I choose to go through with hysterectomy.
B-I don’t orgasm easily and only do with external stimulation but can’t identify if I also feel them more in cervix or uterus. So I’m concerned that Uterus removal will significantly affect the already difficult attained orgasms I do have.
C-Since there is no imagery, testing, or indication that I have something structural “wrong” or any Endo apparent, it makes me scared that hysterectomy will ultimately not address or solve my pain even though it’s only during menstruation.
I feel at my wits end in every direction, and every month just feels like literal torture to keep handling without relief in sight. Apologies again to just blab, but I’m so anxious and tired. Any thoughts regarding the worries, your perspective perhaps, or any experiences you may have…I’d love to hear. 😞