u/Careful-Gold-425

6 months later and the intense regret and guilt I have over killing my soul mate, my best friend, my entire world is eating me alive. every time I fall asleep at night I am haunted by the final memory of her with the catheter in her foot. before the vet injected her with the solution that would end her life. how confused and anxious she was not understanding what was about to happen. I feel like I tricked her and betrayed her trust. why should i get to decide when she leaves this earth? maybe she wanted to hold on and keep fighting? I cannot live with myself knowing that I played god with her life. and I get to just move on and live mine when I ended hers? that feels wrong. so wrong.