Hi everyone I’m 19 f and need some advice on handling certain medical neglect I’m facing from my GP’s. Sorry this will be a longer post it’s quite a complex case and just need some advice on how to actually get some medical help.
To start the story I have OCD, PTSD, Autism and struggle with mood dysfunction and paranoia + psychosis, used to have an eating disorder and I was diagnosed with EUPD privately after a suicide attempt years ago but the NHS hate to accept private diagnosis’s. I’m on escitalopram and was taking Mirtazapine not too long ago. I’m not currently with the CMHT as it’s been a long process after I became an adult and leaving CAMHS. I have to go to a drug and alcohol service first before CMHT (I formally struggled with drinking. I’m somewhat better now but my doctors don’t believe me which is annoying)
My problem started with me having difficult side effects about 6+ months ago where I struggled to be able to eat anything on escitalopram so my doctors put me on Mirtazapine.
With this Mirtazapine triggered me into a crisis like state. I would get really emotional, suicidal and wouldn’t be able to sleep for days sometimes. I also became extremely angry and snappy, and I even started to go into a bit of psychosis before I stopped. My doctors did nothing about this. They would tell me to “wait it out” or would pretty much just say “so.. what do you want me to do about this..?” Like.. I don’t know.. maybe fix it? They told me when I asked to be re-referred to the CMHT that they were rejecting my application for not being “severe” enough. We reported my bad experience to PAALS and the CMHT got back to me and told me what the GP’s said was a lie and that I had to go to the drug and alcohol service first. Some time passed, I eventually reported these lies and neglect to the manager of my surgery. She got a new doctor
To call me about my case and she spent the entire gp appointment arguing with me, accusing me of lying and refusing to offer me any help. I eventually snapped and was in a crisis state and swore so she put the phone down on me. I totally lost control of my anger and sent through about 10 emails through to the surgery insulting the GP (called her a c*nt and said I’d put a curse on her) and threatening to k1ll mys3lf if she didn’t get fired (yes, extreme I am aware but I was in a SEVERE crisis state, we did call 111 eventually). As you can obviously imagine this was more hindrance for me in the end as I was reported to the police and put on the special allocations scheme and have to go to a GP far away from me now.
I have decided since the incident with my GP’s to ween myself off of Mirtazapine as the anger I’m experiencing is starting to get problematic and honestly totally uncontrollable, However in doing so this has now brought my appetite down DANGEROUSLY and I can barely eat a few slices of bread a day without projectile vomiting. I also get severe irritation in my gag reflex and it seems to trigger me to gag just from chewing. My anger is calmed more now but it’s getting pretty dangerous with how little food I’m able to keep in my body and the new GP’s at the special allocations scheme aren’t very helpful either, they haven’t even received any of my medical record yet so they know nothing about me, He literally just said to me today that there is “nothing he can do to help me” he just told me to exercise and drink water.
Does anyone have any advice they can give in handling cases like this? I know I’m not necessarily the “perfect victim” In the case but that doesn’t mean I’m suffering any less. I’ve been out of work for almost a year now because of this whole situation, it’s exhausting.