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Recently, I have been reading this book titled "The Templars: the rise and spectacular fall of God's holy warriors" by Dan Jones for my research into the Crusades. Through my reading I came across a section about the king of Aragón who was also participating in another crusade, the Reconquista. During his campaign he came to the city of Fraga which was under the occupation of the Muslims. During his campaigns king Alfonso would order his servants to bring his precious relics, these relics range between the bones of saints, precious jewelry and a piece of wood from Christ's crucifix! So during this siege the people of Fraga sent messages to the king saying to stop his siege on the city, accept their surrender and let them leave in peace. They also warned him that if he did not, a large army of Muslim warriors would destroy him. So, ignoring their warning, Alfonso continued his attack on the city. Eventually, that large army did show up and the defenders of the city attacked Alfonso's encampment, stealing his precious relics. After reading that section I could not stop laughing! You would think that having such precious relics he would just leave them in his home while crusading, but nope! Anyways, I just felt like sharing this to everyone and recommend checking out the book.

Lately, I've been falling back in my porno addiction. My personal demon that hangs over my shoulders like a vile snake. The aches and pains of reality is often too much for the mind to handle. Anyways, that's enough poetic writing from me on this post. I've put myself on a schedule of activities to do as to combat my addiction, keep my mind focused. It's a simple schedule; go to the gym for an hour, read books on the crusades, paint my miniatures and spend time off my phone. Every day before I go to sleep and when I wake up I read Psalm 25. I almost have it memorized but I still struggle with my demon. In my mind it calls to me, beckoning me to come back. "Please, my darling. Come back and be in bliss for just a few moments and you'll feel all better", that's what it says to me. I managed to break from my addiction for five whole days. Now, I can only break away for just three days, it's pathetic. I know deep in my heart that God, His son and Mother Mary are not disappointed in me. They beckon me to rise above it, to be free of it. Anyways, that's enough out of me. Thank you, to whoever is reading this post. To anyone else who is struggling with this same addiction, this demon of false bliss and peace; do not be ashamed. It's okay to fall so that we learn to pick ourselves up with not just our own will but by God and His son's grace and mercy to do better.