Has anyone else found themselves trying again and again on youtube until it finally works out and you are just waiting for the bubble to burst or the dream to be over? I have been trying again and again on youtube and content in general and have finally found something that has given me success which honestly came off a complete whim. I am proud of how far I came and I am grateful but I also want to showcase my creativity, but you have this constant fear of going back to how it was before. This feeling that it will be over and you will self sabotage yourself or overthink it too much and never upload.
I feel like I have never heard of the massive youtubers speak about this problem of doing whatever they like. If I'm doing whatever I wanted to do without a care in the world I would be making content doing YTP, skits, reactions anything and everything I wanted to do. That in itself is impractical despite how much fun I would have making it that video will only do well if the viewers enjoy watching it. And normally that factor doesn't exist together. It is also impractical if you want to make this a full time profession. I enjoy editing but I have learned that not everyone else enjoys what I enjoy and I am okay with that. I enjoy editing random stuff for myself. I feel like that is okay. This is a bit of a rant but just wanted to get this off my chest.