Update: Gynae-Oncology appointment made!
I have the date, the time, I have appropriate expectations for the appointment and some idea of what’ll happen. They especially noted that the surgeon will go over exactly what they’ve found and what that means.
They also said that my surgery will take place within 4 weeks of this appointment and I’m relieved. It feels like the limbo I was in is easing.
There’s only really been two downsides to the wait. I had another cyst rupture and it landed me in the ED again because of the symptoms, and at my gyno appointment they said they found more confirmation of a likely, very slow growing renal cancer. Thankfully with the ED trip, the bleeding wasn’t toooooo bad though I did have to move and breathe carefully for a couple of days.
I’m staying positive, I’m still not sold on “I for sure have cancer” yet, I’ll wait for the biopsy results and then manage whatever emotions come up. I do feel like I have to be strong for my sister whom I care for, and I’m worried that everything going on with me will trigger her psychosis and will land her in hospital again. She okay so far, she recently got discharged and she’s helping me so much. I’ll work with my psychologist to figure out strategies to set me up with good skills to help manage myself.
Right now, I mostly want my mum. I wish she were here to help out and take over care of my sister. She died of a metastatic non specific sarcoma when she was 36. Her mother had breast cancer and survived it and _her_ mother died young from suspected pancreatic cancer. I just feel like she’d understand, you know?
Oh well, let’s see how this unfolds. A confirmed appointment is the best news!