Yes I know it sounds insane but I promise I’m completely coherent and in my right mind right now. I’ve never had a problem with hallucinations or delusions in my entire life but I do have some kind of horrific flu that’s left me bedridden for days and hospitalized me once already. I’m back home, actually feeling a bit better, but I’m going into day 5 now of this.
I keep getting these hot flashes, so I’ll turn the fan on high til I’m cool then turn it off. I just had a hot flash a few minutes ago so I turned the fan on and I started hearing quiet screams of agony coming from the fan. I know white noise can produce this kind of thing so I just noted it and carried on laying here being a sick person.
Then I just closed my eyes for a moment and as soon as I closed them I saw a flash of an engraving of the Virgin Mary. She was posed like one of those lawn statues with a long veil and her hands together praying, and there was an arch of stars from shoulder to shoulder going above her head if that makes sense.
I only saw the image for a second. It could’ve been caused by so many different things considering I’m sick right now but I’ve been sick many times before and I’ve never had anything close to a Marion vision. I’m not even Catholic, though I at one point considered myself a Christian at the least and struggled with God for years before giving up.
Over the past 5 days I’ve been praying to God to please help me get better and help me get through this. My pain never got any relief from my prayers, so I thought. I am still suffering horrifically but I am slowly improving in some aspects. I just wanted to know what actual Catholics make of this, and if the pose of the Virgin Mary means anything specific along with the stars?
Edit: I just learned the arch of stars above her head is called “Stella Maris” which means star of the sea… my name actually IS Maris!
Edit 2: I haven’t had a fever the whole time, just want to be clear because I know a fever can cause hallucinations. This is a stomach flu, haven’t had a fever the for the whole illness.