Hey all. Looking for some support and/or tips from people who understand. Im 25, born female, identify otherwise. Im around 5ft 10inches (177cm for any none US friends) and am at my heaviest weight of about 400lbs (181kg). Ive been overweight since my late teens, but it really started getting out of control once I moved out of my parents place when I was 20, then it hit the extremes im at now when I started living completely alone around 23. I definitely know that im using food as a coping mechanism and have a full blown addiction to it. I recently started diving into my disordered eating with my therapist so im hoping that starts to help.
But, my health is starting to decline because of my weight. Im on cholesterol medication, and am now prediabetic. Also have insulin resistance. Im so tired of being this way. I recently started taking adderall for my ADHD which has actually helped some of the food noise. But trying to resist my cravings is so difficult. Especially at night. I can do great all day. Make the right choices for what im eating and portions, but then Nighttime comes and the cravings are so bad. I'll eat until im physically sick, go drink pepto Bismol so my stomach doesn't hurt anymore then go eat more.
If anyone can relate please lmk what yall do to help, if there is anything.