i finally identified the saint from my dreams and i’m in tears
i’ve been hesitant to post this but i need to get it out. for a while now i’ve been having these recurring dreams of this man. the setting is always this really rugged, quiet mountainous area.
idk how to explain it but every time i met him in the dream, i would just start crying. not like a scary cry, but just this deep, overwhelming ache that felt so heavy. i’d wake up with my pillow actually wet from tears every single time. it got to the point where i tried to write his icon to the best of my recollection just to figure out who he was or why he kept showing up.
In the last dream, he spoke to me. i was standing there just sobbing, and he came over, he looked so humble and simple and he told me, do not be afraid of the tears, they are washing the dust off your heart.
I didn't even understand what he meant.
He spoke to me about my life, things i’ve never told anyone. he spoke to me like he actually knew me. he knew my whole life story, my struggles, everything. i was a total mess and i just begged him, please don't leave me.
He looked at me with so much compassion and smiled, like a father, and said, Your time is not yet, my child. Be at peace.
Then he reached out and touched my chest, and this blinding, pure light started emanating from his hands. It wasn't hot but it just felt like a physical weight was being lifted off my life. I woke up feeling like I could finally breathe.
Today, I was reading some comments on my previous post. I did a Google search and my heart literally stopped.
It was St. Paisios.
The moment his photo popped up on my screen, I burst into tears again. It’s him. Every single detail, the eyes, the beard, the humble expression, is the man I’ve been following up that mountain. The landscape in my dreams is Mount Athos.
I’m honestly struggling to process this. Why me? I feel so undeserving. I’m just a regular person, and he is this holy, pure soul. It feels like a mistake, like I’m not worthy of a visitation like this. I miss him, till this day I pray and hope that I am able to see him in my dreams again…😭😭😭
St Paisios of Mt Athos, pray for us all! 🙏😔😔😔😭😭😭