Assalam wa aleikum everyone,
I’ve been having this doubt for a while because I don’t know if this is normal or if I’m being gaslit.
I have been dealing with depression for a couple of years now and my mother found out. I was struggling in university a lot and was really unhappy, I ended up changing degrees and university. Throughout all of that, my mother took me to see this man that prayed on me and on sand and ever since, she has been making us drink the sand and rubbing it on the parts of my body where I have “issues”. Moreover, she would make me wear this protective necklace but hide it from people bc of 3ayn. All of it as a way to keep the depression away bc Allah pushed me away and the prayed on sand and necklace is what will protect? me and have him love me again and “cure” me…
I stopped doing all of that but she’s been forcing me to continue everytime she visits. So I wanted to know if what she’s doing and making us do is shirk ?