u/Calm-Staff-9335

I feel like it was all worthless. I loved you so much, I hate looking back on everything and instead of having the privilege of looking back positively on those days like you do, all I feel is pain. Cause all that time spent together, as we were getting closer, I was falling more and more for you and you just became more unsure. People say the ones who loved the hardest are the real winners in the end, but that's the most untrue thing I've ever heard. How is that winning? Giving my all for you just to have you push me away and ask to be friends like its nothing :,) the worst thing is, I can't hate you. You're a good person and you'd be a great friend... I just wish that's how we started out instead of you making the first move and then taking it back like I was worthless