Injury that took away my life!
I had a pretty bad elbow injury about 9 months ago, and what followed has honestly been one of the hardest things I’ve ever gone through. I ended up needing two surgeries, and the second one was complicated by an infection and required a flap procedure. Since then, recovery has been slow and exhausting. I’m now about 6–7 months post-op from the second surgery, and I’m still dealing with daily pain some days are manageable, other days it really gets to me. My elbow is very stiff, and when I try to bend it, I hit a hard “block” that physically won’t let me go further. I’ve been doing physiotherapy, but progress feels limited and frustrating. On top of that, the scar is quite significant, and while I’m trying to accept it, it’s been hard emotionally as well.
What’s been even harder is how much this has affected me mentally and spiritually. I feel like I’ve changed as a person. I’m angry a lot of the time even angry at God constantly asking “why did this happen to me?” and feeling like I didn’t deserve this. I’ve stopped doing things that used to ground me, including worship, and I just feel disconnected, sad, and honestly exhausted all the time. It feels like this injury didn’t just affect my arm, it affected my whole life and how I see everything. I’ve been in a really low place mentally, and it’s hard to find motivation or hope some days.
I guess I’m just wondering if anyone else has gone through something similar not just physically, but mentally too. Did things improve for you over time? How did you cope with the pain, the stiffness, and the emotional toll of it all? I just want to feel normal again and not be in pain all the time.