One mistake changed everything
Before I had y big crash out at work and to my friends about work, I was in a really good relationship with my friends and workmates. But everything piled up and I lost control of everything, especially my emotions.
I did get mad when my manager rejected my leaves which I shouldn't have. Complained a lot about a new director who didn't do her job well. And was too open about the problems I had. I also ranted repeatedly and to be honest, I did put so many people in the middle and in bad situations.
Now, no one talks to me. I went from having an amazing support system and closed friends and co workers to no one in one week. I apologized to everyone involved and am trying to get better. I'm giving people space, not rally ranting or venting to anyone anymore, apologized, working better, being more considerate, quitting my unhealthy habits, gaining healthier habits, and going to therapy.
But do you think there's any possibility that they'll come back to my life? I know talking to them again and again to fix the situation won't work and I should give them the space until they're ready to come back to my life. But it just doesn't feel like things will get better, I miss them but I also think I completely lost them already and ruined my reputation.
I'm not fake and I'm just too honest so who I was before was never a facade, I just really reached my limits 😞 please let me know if things will go back to how they were