I am a 19 y/o currently in my 4th semester at a community college, and, up until now, I have gotten at least a B in every single class, including Anatomy and Physiology (which are separate classes here). I say up until now because I just got a 55% on my most recent Microbiology exam (with a 66% overall) and need near perfect grades just to get a C. I do intend on trying my hardest for my final, but I don't expect things to go too well.
I have also been looking through a few nursing programs, including multiple Associate programs at different community colleges and a few private universities.
I'm really stressed because every single Microbiology class for the next Fall semester are full, including the waitlists. I also still live with my (Asian) parents, and am under the pressure of them being angry. My mom has told me that she will support me no matter how long it takes for me to get into a nursing program, but not too long ago she was somewhat upset that I wanted to take a gap year (for mental health and because I could not apply to certain programs until I actually finished all my classes). Also, I'm not sure that I can reliably get into any programs even if I retake and get at least a B in Microbio (because I only got a B for both A&P).
I am very well aware that, most of the time, I do not have my priorities in the right place, which is why I'm currently failing Microbiology. I do intend on finding a job during my 'gap' year(s), so that I'm not just rotting away at home, waiting to register into a Micro class.
I'm kinda just looking for anything to raise my spirits, and maybe also some advice from people that have been in a situation like this before. Any coping methods or other useful tips?
I'm also sorry if this feels really scattered and disorganized. I'm genuinely stressed and scared for my future and I don't want to feel alone.