u/CalicoCadaver

I went to therapy last week. My mom thinks it's something you go to once, you rant all your problems and just get better on your own in a single session. Both my mom and dad hold it against me that I went to therapy for once. They keep talking about it like it's a bad thing. As if im doing something bad to our family. They love blaming me for their own psychological situations too. I told them to go to therapy, if they went id probably need it less. My mom says I try to get a diagnosis to not be held responsible of my actions. What crap is that. I've been different my whole life. What worked for everyone was never the same for me. Chores and studying are hard when you have pressure and anxiety over it. Caused by what? The environment. But no pushing me further and dissing me would fix that. I'll probably only get a diagnosis when I'm in my 30s and I'm 19 rn. I feel more loved and understood by animals rather than the people who supposedly love me. Not a single word I said is being listened to. They put words in my mouth. Parents don't like you when you're not a copy of their ideals anymore. When your ideas differentiate and you educate yourself that's when they stop liking you. I'm sure I'm autistic, literally SURE. I bet there are people that can relate to everything I'm saying. I need coping ways, all this stress and anxiety on top of my undiagnosed autism makes me paralyzed but I literally only have 45 days to study for the uni exam and if I dont do good it'll only get worse for me. Any advice, questions or interactions are welcome I need to take my mind off of today's events.