u/Calamity16

I don’t want this to come off as me just straight up degrading myself but truly this is just my honest opinion of myself rn. I’m 20 looking at the last 5 years of my life I can’t say that I’ve genuinely achieved anything besides graduating high school. I’ve barely passed half my classes in college and my dream job currently is to be a nurse but I can barely even pass anatomy. I’ve failed that class once now and as we speak my prof is grading the practical which means I’ll probably end up failing when she’s done. I have a job but at a hospital but at this point my parents think it’s better for me to just quit it as they think I can’t handle work and school at the same time but even still I feel like that. My own mother is currently disappointed with me for my own academic work and I can’t say I blame her I feel as if she’s fully right over everything she says. When it comes to my other aspects of life I don’t even know how to drive and even when I took the permit test and everything with it I fully passed but being the lazy person I am I have just procrastinated doing my in car lessons. My social life is possibly the best aspect of my life rn as I have really close and good friends that I can consider my own brothers and even at that when it comes to a relationship I’ve never been in one. I think my body is fairly fit but even at that I sometimes look in a mirror and think that I’m fat. I used to be in the gym everyday at some point but me being me I just stopped overtime and haven’t been in who knows how long at this point. I am constantly on the game and even when I get off to try and study it’s like the studying does nothing for me and I’m just useless with it. I really do wanna change my life but I can’t think of myself as anything more than a genuine failure right now.