Hi. My name is Val, I'm 22 and I have endometriosis, fibromyalgia and PTSD
I had so many dreams. Since I was little, I always wanted to be an astronaut. I went to college for both mechanical and electrical engineering in hopes of doing an apprenticeship with the air force and was in my second year when I had to drop out because of my health. I experienced something very traumatic and my doctor believes the emotional and mental stress from the event was what contributed to my fibromyalgia being triggered alongside my existing PTSD and endo. I'm so tired and in so much pain 90% of the time. I've just finished a 2 week sick period off work because I woke up screaming in so much agony one morning from a flare up and my dad rushed me to the hospital. I could barely move for over a week. I'm starting to really struggle with basic things and sometimes I wonder what the point is. I still live at home, I don't drive (I was learning but my conditions got in the way.) I'm struggling to maintain my job and any hope I had of achieving my dreams has been absolutely crushed. It's so unfair. I rely on other people so much and I absolutely hate it. I feel like such a burden on the world and like such a failure of a human being.
I'm so fed up of my body betraying me and im so angry with what I've had to give up just to survive from day to day. Does it ever get any easier to come to terms with being the way I am? I hope so..
Thanks for listening to me.