u/CR-Weather-Gods

I know this is blamey, but what is it that meaninglessness is taking from you? What do you strain against?

Maybe put another way, why would meaning have ever made you happier than you are now?

I think it could be a fun idea to take and practice as many IQ tests as possible as many times as possible, to completely inflate your score, not through literal memorized answers, but through training. And then basically not be testable by any official test, because you've ruined all of them by practicing so much.